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245 Day Working! TF am I smoking?!?!?

Posted in Important Posts with tags , , , , , on 04/15/2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Nothing. No seriously I am completely sober. Well…ok slightly drunk…but still coherent.

This really isn’t an honest to goddess pathworking with rituals everyday. What this is, is me improving myself. I had a session with my guardian and he pretty much reemed my ass. Lol. There is a huge wedge between my spiritual work and my mundane life.  I thought it was good but apparently I was wrong like shit. What this 28 day working is telling me, is that I still have a lot of shit to overcome, and I need to find a better way of fitting my practice into my schedule. I mean I do things everyday, but apparently that is shitty. So off to create a new schedule.

To get this started, I talked to my guardian for like an hour or 3, and pretty much brought down all the books from my bedroom and basement and placed them on my dining room table. Sophie was not to happy about that, since they surrounded her food bowl. Go fig. But I wrote down everything that I have and am currently working on. After a good back and forth and me listening, and being read, and listening, and listening again, I organized everything into 4 categories as requested, in which 2 of them are high priority.  The 2 can take a back seat right now.

Once those were ID’d, I then grabbed one of my many blank spiral notebooks (seriously I should buy stock in Staples) and proceeded to write down the things that need to get done, what I hope to accomplish with them, and the beginning of a daily and weekly schedule. I mean shit- I need to say my prayers every morning and night- not when I remember them. I need to incorporate yoga, walking, psychic building and meditation time in everyday. I need to be consciously eating and not just mindlessly eating. I need to feed my brain more (and that is going to be a feat). I need to make sure my spiritual and mundane life is one. Because, like they said, “You are doing a shitty job”.

I do have the idea of working with the Necronomicon deck during this time. At first, I was going to pull 2 cards a week and work under their influence. Then I scrapped that because it didn’t fit. So secondly I was going to work with one card a day and let it guide me like I am doing now. But that didn’t fill right either. Then, lol, I was like hmmmm…I took that tarot class last month so maybe I will just practice my readings with the Necro deck. It is attuned to me and my deep subconscious so this may be a better option. (See…it pays to attend as meaning classes as you can. Never know when it may come in handy!)

I have everything sitting in its separate area. I still need to put more books together and I need a few book bags to make sure all the books and binders and whatnot, are put away properly. And to give you a glimpse to what I am talking about, I have:

11 binders, 7 composition books, 6 empty spiral notebooks, 18 reading and working books, shit load of lancets, daggers, clay, pens/pencils/markers/, tape, scissors, hand sanitizer, stickies, hole puncher, candles and etc. LOL!

Needless to say my candle supply is becoming really low. Like I have enough to finish the month out, maybe a couple of weeks into May. So you know what that means, I have to make a list of candles, herbs, and other items to get up to carry me for a few months and then make another run. I mean I am going to be very irked doing my workings in the summer, because I already generate a lot of heat. We don’t turn the AC on till June (we all know how bipolar the weather is), so I can always go into my basement where it is cool year round lol, and relax. Matter of fact the basement is about to get a makeover.

I can say this, being back in my parents house is weird. I never imagined being a divorcee at 36 and back in school lol. I mean shit! What this experience has taught me was that I really don’t know myself, or those I were in a relationship with, or my parents; and I am glad to be back with them so we can learn each other (I mean I left home at 17, joined the military and 20 years later I am back!) I have been through a lot. There were experiences that I needed to get me to where I am now. I am grateful to be able to even come home to the support of my family. Besides, I really do believe in communal living. Times are tough and we need all the help and support we can get. I guess I am getting nervous with my parent’s getting older as well. Who wouldn’t really? So I really wouldn’t move far away. Well maybe far away were we won’t bug each other, but close enough where I can either catch a flight or drive home if need be. Plus I get to help my mother make her own portable altar so you know I am hype about that!

My path is medicine (spiritual and mundane). My gods are all healers, or death related, and enlightenment and also in a place where they are all about understanding the depths of a person. I didn’t take all those psych classes for no reason, just another degree I want to obtain as it works directly on my mundane and especially the spiritual path. It is amazing when you see things clearly for the first time, in a long time. Now I have till the end of the year to get myself in a good practice, to slow down and make sure that I am really becoming who I AM and not what I think I am you know. Not rushing anything, not beating myself up and just immersing myself in all aspects in my life. I need everything to be seamless.

I do have some crazy ass projects coming up, and I will fill you in later. I have some reviews coming up as well and maybe a reworking of this blog and my other one. My drop some categories, combine and/or add…I swear man, this is going to be a challenge that is going to wreck my nerves lol. But it is all worth it.

I mean I need to be able to: do my school work, my spiritual work, tend to my classes and students, work on my relationships, enjoy me off time and finish Season 12 of Supernatural. Put a dent in my Netflix and Hulu queue, get reacquainted with my PS3 and 4, and 360 and Wii. With the Wii I will be bowling like a champ lol!

I mean, gosh, time does fly when you are trying to shake the world and put your stamp on it 🙂

My Compendum

Posted in Rituals and Workings with tags , , on 11/28/2013 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Just because I’m tired of Book of Shadows. Yup, that’s right. Anyway…I finally have it organized…eh somewhat. I will probably go back through and delete some accumulated material, rewrite spells, rituals and charges. Even comment and share my two cents on some articles.

I have a few folders that I’m still thinking about deleting as its not my cup of tea. Normally I share that information online as long as it’s copyrights and the authors name is there, if not I put unknown. Or I’ll just toss it. But my African Tribal, Angelic Magick, NLP, and The East folders will probably go. I’ll add some good info to my Basics and Left Hand Thinking folder and toss the rest.

I have a folder for books that have been put in word document and not pdf form, that I  may get rid, because I probably already have them. I also have a folder full of pictures from the net that would make great tattoos and meditation pieces as well.

That leaves me with: Animal Guides and Astrology, Astral Workings and Ascension, Basics and Left Hand Thinking (though not liking that title), Book of Herbs, Book of Meditations and Healing, Collection of Oils and Incense, Dedications, Prayers, Charges and Invocations; Demonic Villa (not liking the name either), Goddess, Gods (May merge the two not sure),  Holidays, Music (have some good ones for meditation), Poetry, Spells and Rituals (broken down into further sub sections for my OCD pleasure), The Fridge, and Vampirism (but I think this is going to be absorbed in one of my pathworkings though).

I have my Pathworking folder that has my big projects in them. Chakra and Auric, Daemonaltry, Draconian, Elemental, Enochian, Necromantic, and Tantra and Yoga. They are pertinent right now, the others are in stasis which is cool. I don’t want to much more going on with me. Don’t need to overload myself again. But it’s not pressure to do this like it was before. I have enough push and drive to get what needs to be done. If I don’t do my half hour meditation today, it doesn’t mean I have to start over. It means I will do it tomorrow. I practice and do something everyday. Not a lot. It could range from drawing out a sketch, to doing a spell, sitting down for meditation, yoga, watching what I eat, journaling, or reading. There are no most haves, and most do’s.

I think that is what makes this so enjoyable. Even more really. I’m competing with only one person, and we get a kick out of how far we both have come in only four years. It’s a good way to make sure neither one of us is slacking, and that we aren’t over doing what we are handling. I know his limits, and he knows mine. Can’t get better than that.

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