What will I learn this month?
Trumps, 10 of Fortune. There are some very unique and eye opening opprtunities that will help you get the umph back in your life. A long road but it’s worth it.
How will this aid me in the near future?
Strife, 5 of wands. In times that may be difficult you will be able to burst through them with minimum problems, and come out unscathed. Don’t let it bring youbdown, it’s only a bother small bump.
What will this month take from me?
Sorrow, 3 of swords. This month will take sorrow and sadness that I’ve had for a few away. It will put me in a better frame of mind, something I have been looking forward to for a long, long time.
Clarification?
Happiness, 9 of cups. My academic career is coming to a close and I have 6 months of hands on training, which I freaking love. It’s lifting my spirits. It means I’m closet to being back in the workforce, going deeper into my chosen career field. Getting closer to people and being able to have more intimate moments with my partner and my altar. The latter that had been lacking do to school and so much stress.
What will this month bring?
Princess of cups. The ebb and flow of water has my emotions on edge. There is much that will be thrown at me, but I have those behind me that can help me wade through the thickness
How will it affect me?
Prince if Swords. This will have my temper flaring, and cutting people quickly like it did today. I need to be wiser in the battles that I deal with. The people around me will draw that side out of me and it’s up to me to block the ignorance and focus on what’s in front of me my emotional connection to triggers that people push. Needs to be addresses and worked on.
In my AA tarot group they came up with a tarot challenge for the month of October. Which is awesome because I do want to get to know my Thoth deck a little better. So I’ll share my cards and interpretation here.
Who am I?
Princess of wands. I am fire. I am a woman who has a very driven passion, always been driven in areas that reward my soul and my life’s purpose. They fuel the fire that burns in my heart, the scorch marks of my footprints that are left when I walk. Freedom.
What brought me to this point?
Prince of wands. More fire lol. The direction and what I have experienced has made sure that I stayed on this oath, no matter what bumps were in my way. The will, the determination has never slowed down. It will continue to build.
My deck for the month and my draw. Each day I will draw a different number of cards depending on the question asked, and if I feel the need to ask more questions.
When I was younger, I didn’t have those childhoods that those in the occult say they did. You know, playing with witches, and not being interested in “normal childhood activities”. I loved playing with dolls, action figures, stuffed animals and board games and video games. I love sports, I enjoy them all really, and I never was one that gravitated to only the “occulty” items in the store. I love pink, and other bright colors, and I stayed to myself and never really left the house. I definitely wasn’t trying to open the veil or look for creatures, them fuckers found me and I just dealt with it. It scared the shit out of me, but hell it isn’t like I really had anyone to talk to about it, even know I have a very select few I can talk about things with.
I never wanted to escape my reality and move into another dimension as a child. As an adult I want to get the fuck away from all these fuckers and humans and never be bothered again. I really can murk everyone in my life and have no problem sitting in jail for it, it has become that bad. As a child I only focused on the mundane, even though the spiritual was pulling me; I always resisted.
I didn’t really fall into it until I was 10, and even then for 3 years I was going through literally hell and psychosis in fighting against my gift, my calling, and my blood. I started writing more, and it was a part of my life that I loved. I started to get deeper into the darker things and aspects of life around that age, and it all centered on death. Only death, and torture, i even won awards when I was younger on my murder stories. I guess it concerned some of the people at the ceremonies that a child under 10, wrote a better murder/torture story then teenagers. It is a gift what can I say.
Almost 30 years later, and I want to connect to this feelings and actions again. but in a more constructive and better applied way. Focusing on my chosen path and gifts, understanding what They are showing me, and letting it flow through me with guidance and help from others who words actually mean something to me.
Being able to think, and have things shown to you, to lose a lot of shit, and watch people fall away in front of you, really makes you think…what is next.
Well I know, and it isn’t worrying about anyone else. It is what it is. All I am thinking about honestly is some chicken nuggets, fries, maybe pizza and wings, some beer, tacos, and dessert. Can’t forget the wine and mac and cheese. It really is the only thing that makes sense in this world. And animals, they are the best!
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