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28 Day Working Recap (Day 28)

Posted in Rituals and Workings with tags , , , , , , , , on 04/24/2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

LATE POST!!!!!!!

Let me tell you I am beyond drained. I did a shit load of invocations, got yelled at and then I was just going crazy.

Now the beginning was really good, I started out with my Patron Leviathan, and from there I let the workings dictate what I needed to do to clear my mind. I swear, I sit with retards all day, well about 2-3 of them and I just want to reach over and slit their throats…just think of it as a late term abortion. But I have to calm my violent thoughts and push them out my mind. I mean all that tension is going to drive me crazy…well crazier if you think about it.

I worked through the tarot and I have less than 10 cards left. So I am waiting for those to be finish before I put up part one of my interpretation. The cards themselves have brought so much insight into this reflection of who I was. It also helped that my partner was the one tapping into my energy and pulling the cards for me, being an empath he was bringing things out that I didn’t want to face yet, shit. But it had to be down. Some days the info was looking right at me, other days I had to rack my brain to realize he pulled deep from my core, on those days it rattled me and frustrated me. But what was I to do, stop? Hell no! I kept going. I actually like that, and plan on working with my other 2 tarot decks the same way. See how each deck resonates with me and what I can pull from them and myself.

I sat down with my guardian to go through all my workings and got a few projects pushed back, and quite a few moved to the top of the list, some on standby and waiting for the major projects to be done. I attempted a mock schedule today for the next 245 day working, and that went to shit this morning. We have this MLT week at school so we have all these dumb ass projects that we have to do that will be cutting into my spiritual and rebuilding time, plus studying takes at least 4 hours out my day minimum, not to mention the puppies, my family, and doctor appointments and the travel time. So I am like shit. Have to rearrange them so I can get everything down and leaving time during the weekday for stupid shit. I was able to get in my morning and nightly prayers, and visualizations in. I read/finished one of my books, and I am now blogging which I should have done yesterday. But it caught the best of me and I was wrapped up in last minute cleaning, organizing and school prep.

I did a lot of invocations, the 9 Divinities, Lilith, Satan, Leviathan, Sekhmet, Hecate, Lucifer and Belial. I did a New Moon and a Full Moon ritual. I did a 6 day ritual and a 2 day initiation. I started back on a class that I need to buy more clay, more wood and I need a wood burning kit. I just made a list of all the shit I am going to need and it is a lot of it.

I also started working with poisons, taking them slowly, a few drops at a time and working my way up. Steph made me some tinctures, and Ginger gave me some good ass advice and information. So I am set to go and so far, no ill effects, and I am not trying to see any either. I do listen to my guardian as he hates the idea, because I am hard headed, but not this type of hardheaded, I listen very closely.

I have 6 Covens I am actively apart of, and doing work in and for. I have 3 path workings that are all being revamped and worked on. I have 6 personal workings that I am working on for myself, and the huge 245 working is apart of all of these things. I have some rough roads to go down, a lot of tasks given to me, a lot of assignments to complete and plenty of writings to get down.  I have goals of what I want to do everyday, because hey, I am still human and I do forget and slack off. If you say you don’t , you are full of shit.

What I want to and have almost tried to put into everyday was the following:

Morning prayer to patron and affirmation/visualization

Evening prayer to matron and visualization

Grounding with Belial

Tarot working

Conscious eating, exercise

Time to communicate with guardian

Yoga, Psychic workings, trance work

Yeah I got 6, almost of those things done which is good. It adds up to 3 hours a day.  I spend 5 hours in school (actually I am at school around 630 am and leave around 130) so actually 7 hours to include driving. Then roughly 3-4 hours of homework and study ( I am in a medical program so this shit is no joke, 15 wk course done in 3 wk, talk about being fucking accelerated) so school work is roughly 11 hours a day but luckily only 4 days a week. But that doesn’t include time to bath and wind done ad eating and talking to the family and breathing so add like another 3-4 hours. That brings me up to 13-15 hrs and I haven’t done any spirit work yet lol. So add in the 3 hours and I am up to 16-18 hours. Now I only get like 5 hours of sleep in during the weekday…sometimes less depending on if its test day or I am working on a school assignment. On the weekends I have a better chance at doing what needs to be done, which is sleeping lol, having a day with no school work done, and running errands and trying to get shit together. Man it is difficult. But it is something that I can and will manage. No one said this shit was easy, but it is worth it.

I relaxed and had days where I didn’t do a lot of spirit work, just the Goetia and Tarot cards, and those days I just slept lol. I did a lot of dream work, so I guess that counts lol. Oh and when I need to go to the doctors, that is like 2-4 hours of bullshit out your day because we all hate going to the doctors, with these long as waits for no fucking reason lol.

But I managed to get through all 28 days and do something everyday. The last day I did my goetia, tarot, and my ritual and invocation to Sehkmet, my Matron. She closed out the workings and it was beautiful.

 

Last Semester of Community College

Posted in Important Posts with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on 02/27/2016 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

This has been the longest 2 years of my life. I have been in school every semester (including the summer sessions) since 2014 in an effort to get the hell out of school and get this damn A.S. so I can move on to my B.S. I had two semesters of total bullshit and horrible teachers and me not being able to recover due to crap, and then with just some shitty ass teachers who have tenure and don’t give a flying rats ass about the students or if they are even teaching the material.

This last semester I am doing all online. I refuse to step foot on that campus again. I just don’t have it in me not to knock someone’s block off. So far when I had to go to campus it has not been a pleasant experience and I had to leave quickly and calm myself down.

I have 5 classes that I chose to give me an easy semester that can damn near guarantee me all A’s. Lord knows that I need it after the debacle I have had and the low GPA.

I am taking History of Art: Ancient to Renaissance. Has to be my favorite class this academic year. It lets me utilize my Occult knowledge and get a better handle on the lovely past. I can see the art and how it ties into the religious affiliations of the time period. Then there is Personality Theory which is very interesting. I have been wanting to take this class for a year now, and I am not disappointed. I am learning more in-depth about the different psychologists and their approach to their theories. There is World Religion in which I get to read these 4 amazing books that give me different insights into the authors view of religion from around the globe. Books are interesting as well. They are “Eight Theories of Religion” by Daniels Pals, “Short History of Myth” by Karen Armstrong, “The End of Faith” by Sam Harris and “The World’s Religions” by Smith. Very good books to have in your library. My Ethics class is not what I thought it would be and I find myself annoyed with it and pretty much waiting until a few hours before the assignment is due to interact with anything or anyone on the forum. My Calc class is going well, even though the teacher is still being an ass.

For the most part I am good, 4 A’s and 1 B. Can’t complain…so far.

Stop trying to drown Samhain

Posted in Rituals and Workings with tags , , , on 10/15/2013 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Y’all think y’all are slick don’t y’all.

What goes on in the month of Ocotber

Breast Cancer

Pitt Bull Awareness

Domestic Abuse Awareness

UNICEF

and some more shit I forget.

Breast cancer and all cancer should not be for a certain month. That shit needs to be year round. They only focus on a month near the holidays so people who don’t really give a fuck can by something orange, pink, purple or green and feel like they did something. Fuck that. Cancer runs in my family so fuck that once a month bull shit. I do not support wearing anything to support the cause because I support the causes. How the fuck is selling 2000 pink hairdryers going to help cure cancer. It isn’t. Your dumb ass just brought something you didn’t need, while the company made more money, and donated like $1000 bucks of the $1 million they go it. Oh my bad, the $10,000. Please do you know how much the scientist need to make. They are making upwards of 6 figures. how much money as been raised for breast cancer, testicular cancer, prostate cancer…yet the only thing they have done was make your dick get hard when you need it. Fuck out of here with that bull shit.

People get their asses beat everyday. Like we really need to have a month towards the end of the year to bring awareness. Guess what, we know it exists. How about making laws that protects the women, men and children on the receiving end of a beat down…instead of not doing a fucking thing. How about a one strike out deal. You beat someone your ass is gone for life. They don’t deserve chances period.

UNICEF. Its Halloween I am giving out candy not money, fuck out of here. Trying to get those damn kids robbed. Just dumb as hell.

Anything else that tries to stamp out a Holiday, because you have fucking retards that have their panties in a bunch, go jump in a lake and drown very slowly. You religious zealots need to get a life.  If Halloween goes…get rid of Christmas. It is our fucking holiday any way you fucking thieves. Always have to ruin shit for other people because your life is meaningless.

I want off this planet. Where the hell are the aliens, they have to come pick my ass the fuck back up. I am done 🙂

Angels and Demons

Posted in Book Reviews with tags , , , on 08/08/2013 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

You already know. I love anything Tom Hanks plays in. He is a very talented actor. Ok, now that that is over with…

I give the Pope’s Assistant props. I mean, dude had a long term goal and he stuck with it. Can’t be made at him for that. Playing on the church’s ignorance, framing people, and then making himself look like a hero!! Bravo! That is how you take over a nation lol. I’m so serious.

He was pretty damn good on tying up his loose ends. Almost.

This goes to show you, how far one person will go to make sure their Religion is the be all, end all. Was he willing to sacrifice his beloved Vatican…naaaa. He counted on the symbologist to get things done. He had a back up plan that’s for sure. But who knows if he would have stopped the explosion.

I can’t really say why I enjoy this movie. Maybe it’s one man’s determination to defend his faith? Maybe it’s one psychos will to push the envelope?  Either way, you can’t deny that he had his shit together and developed his plan early in life. Who else would have gone to those lengths to be Pope? Probably none of them.

Rating: 4

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