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28 Day Working Recap (Day 28)

Posted in Rituals and Workings with tags , , , , , , , , on 04/24/2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

LATE POST!!!!!!!

Let me tell you I am beyond drained. I did a shit load of invocations, got yelled at and then I was just going crazy.

Now the beginning was really good, I started out with my Patron Leviathan, and from there I let the workings dictate what I needed to do to clear my mind. I swear, I sit with retards all day, well about 2-3 of them and I just want to reach over and slit their throats…just think of it as a late term abortion. But I have to calm my violent thoughts and push them out my mind. I mean all that tension is going to drive me crazy…well crazier if you think about it.

I worked through the tarot and I have less than 10 cards left. So I am waiting for those to be finish before I put up part one of my interpretation. The cards themselves have brought so much insight into this reflection of who I was. It also helped that my partner was the one tapping into my energy and pulling the cards for me, being an empath he was bringing things out that I didn’t want to face yet, shit. But it had to be down. Some days the info was looking right at me, other days I had to rack my brain to realize he pulled deep from my core, on those days it rattled me and frustrated me. But what was I to do, stop? Hell no! I kept going. I actually like that, and plan on working with my other 2 tarot decks the same way. See how each deck resonates with me and what I can pull from them and myself.

I sat down with my guardian to go through all my workings and got a few projects pushed back, and quite a few moved to the top of the list, some on standby and waiting for the major projects to be done. I attempted a mock schedule today for the next 245 day working, and that went to shit this morning. We have this MLT week at school so we have all these dumb ass projects that we have to do that will be cutting into my spiritual and rebuilding time, plus studying takes at least 4 hours out my day minimum, not to mention the puppies, my family, and doctor appointments and the travel time. So I am like shit. Have to rearrange them so I can get everything down and leaving time during the weekday for stupid shit. I was able to get in my morning and nightly prayers, and visualizations in. I read/finished one of my books, and I am now blogging which I should have done yesterday. But it caught the best of me and I was wrapped up in last minute cleaning, organizing and school prep.

I did a lot of invocations, the 9 Divinities, Lilith, Satan, Leviathan, Sekhmet, Hecate, Lucifer and Belial. I did a New Moon and a Full Moon ritual. I did a 6 day ritual and a 2 day initiation. I started back on a class that I need to buy more clay, more wood and I need a wood burning kit. I just made a list of all the shit I am going to need and it is a lot of it.

I also started working with poisons, taking them slowly, a few drops at a time and working my way up. Steph made me some tinctures, and Ginger gave me some good ass advice and information. So I am set to go and so far, no ill effects, and I am not trying to see any either. I do listen to my guardian as he hates the idea, because I am hard headed, but not this type of hardheaded, I listen very closely.

I have 6 Covens I am actively apart of, and doing work in and for. I have 3 path workings that are all being revamped and worked on. I have 6 personal workings that I am working on for myself, and the huge 245 working is apart of all of these things. I have some rough roads to go down, a lot of tasks given to me, a lot of assignments to complete and plenty of writings to get down.  I have goals of what I want to do everyday, because hey, I am still human and I do forget and slack off. If you say you don’t , you are full of shit.

What I want to and have almost tried to put into everyday was the following:

Morning prayer to patron and affirmation/visualization

Evening prayer to matron and visualization

Grounding with Belial

Tarot working

Conscious eating, exercise

Time to communicate with guardian

Yoga, Psychic workings, trance work

Yeah I got 6, almost of those things done which is good. It adds up to 3 hours a day.  I spend 5 hours in school (actually I am at school around 630 am and leave around 130) so actually 7 hours to include driving. Then roughly 3-4 hours of homework and study ( I am in a medical program so this shit is no joke, 15 wk course done in 3 wk, talk about being fucking accelerated) so school work is roughly 11 hours a day but luckily only 4 days a week. But that doesn’t include time to bath and wind done ad eating and talking to the family and breathing so add like another 3-4 hours. That brings me up to 13-15 hrs and I haven’t done any spirit work yet lol. So add in the 3 hours and I am up to 16-18 hours. Now I only get like 5 hours of sleep in during the weekday…sometimes less depending on if its test day or I am working on a school assignment. On the weekends I have a better chance at doing what needs to be done, which is sleeping lol, having a day with no school work done, and running errands and trying to get shit together. Man it is difficult. But it is something that I can and will manage. No one said this shit was easy, but it is worth it.

I relaxed and had days where I didn’t do a lot of spirit work, just the Goetia and Tarot cards, and those days I just slept lol. I did a lot of dream work, so I guess that counts lol. Oh and when I need to go to the doctors, that is like 2-4 hours of bullshit out your day because we all hate going to the doctors, with these long as waits for no fucking reason lol.

But I managed to get through all 28 days and do something everyday. The last day I did my goetia, tarot, and my ritual and invocation to Sehkmet, my Matron. She closed out the workings and it was beautiful.

 

Classes

Posted in Rituals and Workings with tags , , , , , , , on 07/24/2016 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

It has been about 2 years I think, since I taught occult classes. And that seems like it was only a few months ago. Time really flies. But I am back at it on my sisters site Legion for Satan teaching a few classes.

They won’t go live until Samhain this year, which gives me a few more months to get things rolling and find chat options. I am looking forward to be back in this mode though. Even during my time teaching classes, I will be in my own classes, learning more and expanding my own personal path.

I always have been a person who was taught that education is the one thing people can never take from you. It doesn’t matter if it is in academia or spirituality, always expand your world. Read. Read. Read . And read. Let your mind soar, let your imagination come to life and take you new places.

Hell get a coloring book and enjoy that. It is the simple things in life that brings the most joy, and mine is sharing what I know to others and learning from them as well. Learning is a two way street, and I am always a student.

Last Semester of Community College

Posted in Important Posts with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on 02/27/2016 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

This has been the longest 2 years of my life. I have been in school every semester (including the summer sessions) since 2014 in an effort to get the hell out of school and get this damn A.S. so I can move on to my B.S. I had two semesters of total bullshit and horrible teachers and me not being able to recover due to crap, and then with just some shitty ass teachers who have tenure and don’t give a flying rats ass about the students or if they are even teaching the material.

This last semester I am doing all online. I refuse to step foot on that campus again. I just don’t have it in me not to knock someone’s block off. So far when I had to go to campus it has not been a pleasant experience and I had to leave quickly and calm myself down.

I have 5 classes that I chose to give me an easy semester that can damn near guarantee me all A’s. Lord knows that I need it after the debacle I have had and the low GPA.

I am taking History of Art: Ancient to Renaissance. Has to be my favorite class this academic year. It lets me utilize my Occult knowledge and get a better handle on the lovely past. I can see the art and how it ties into the religious affiliations of the time period. Then there is Personality Theory which is very interesting. I have been wanting to take this class for a year now, and I am not disappointed. I am learning more in-depth about the different psychologists and their approach to their theories. There is World Religion in which I get to read these 4 amazing books that give me different insights into the authors view of religion from around the globe. Books are interesting as well. They are “Eight Theories of Religion” by Daniels Pals, “Short History of Myth” by Karen Armstrong, “The End of Faith” by Sam Harris and “The World’s Religions” by Smith. Very good books to have in your library. My Ethics class is not what I thought it would be and I find myself annoyed with it and pretty much waiting until a few hours before the assignment is due to interact with anything or anyone on the forum. My Calc class is going well, even though the teacher is still being an ass.

For the most part I am good, 4 A’s and 1 B. Can’t complain…so far.

Spring Break is about over, sigh

Posted in Important Posts with tags , , on 03/08/2014 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

It was very short. I have a paper due, three tests to study for, and a long as math assignment lol. But it is all worth it. I will be going for summer classes, so I can hurry up and get my AA an transfer to wither Temple or Drexel. Either way I have to make sure my GPA is on point, so I can do the honors thing. You know how it is, they only want the best from the Universities so they can brag “we have the top of so and so from whatchamacallit working for us”. They can care less about experience, which is truly sad. But whatever we got to play the game right.

There are a few programs going on this summer and I am going to go for all three of them, in addition to signing up for summer classes. Got to make sure your options are open, and I am damn sure doing that.

Not going into detail to much, but I am taking five classes, a full load, and my classes are literally scattered throughout the week and times are crazy. Fall I am fixing that shit and making sure I have morning classes and nothing on Friday if I can help out. At least not Friday night. Also if I am trying to get out quicker I can apply for a “class overload schedule” and have it approved by the dean. Most likely I would have some classes online, and the majority on campus, and hopefully two campuses not all of them. I rather be close to home so I can walk, but if I have to go to the Main Campus I am fine with that. Plus clubs for the fall, have to be in at least three to transfer as that is what they are looking for as well. Its like damn I am 33 years old, what the hell. I will see. I have to plan my classes with care.

But that is all for now.

Yule Cleaning

Posted in Rituals and Workings with tags , , , , , , , on 12/20/2013 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Man it has been a long day, and it’s not even five o’clock yet.

Yesterday I did an ascension with Amaymon and with that clarity had been restored. So after mulling it over and letting it sink in, I got to work. I officially can’t see my bed or my love seat. I have everything spread out in my little apartment.

I wanted to start growing my own veggies, and herbs because face it, shit is just to damn expensive and we need to make our money stretch. So my mom sent me a gift in the mail. It turned out to be an Aero Garden in the shape of a ladybug. She said that way I can have fresh food growing and good luck all year. And I totally agree. So that is in my kitchen and I am so excited to see how it grows!

Now I have a lot of personal path workings that are on my mind and have been in the works for a couple of years if not way longer. I have all my books read, the physical ones at least and quite a few of the kindle versions as well. I have everything laid out in their perspective areas so they are grouped together. So here we go. Want to know what I have going on for the year ahead of me. Well sit back and grab your Tylenol, because I’m sure your head will be hearing after this lol. Mine is just thinking about it and knowing it is behind me on the couch, whispering my name lmao!!! So in no particular order…

There is my Necromantic stack. Which has my draconian notebook in there surprisingly but not really. I knew that the Draconian side I was going to expire was going to be on a darker level anyway. Within that stack there are the books: The Necromantic Ritual Book, Honoring Death: The Art of Daemonolatry Necromancy, The Keys of Ocat, and The Grimorie of Tiamat (all read, hi lighted and spilled over). The last two are workings on their own as they are intense and Honoring can be done the same way. I know for me I will do a couple on their own, while I am researching and modifying my own personal Necromantic Hierarchy, and fiddling with those rituals I developed. They just don’t feel right so back to the drawing board. I have more than enough research and material on the Draconian aspect to have a very beautiful current, courtesy of my patron Leviathan. That will be just awesome in its own right and is being developed.

The second stack I have is my organizations martial. I am a Priestess of Satanas in the Brotherhood of Satan, over 2 years strong and there are a lot of duties and writings and things that I am supposed to do. It’s always something new to learn about myself and my path, and in enjoying every bit of it. I am a little sad that I couldn’t meet with my Magistry for the Solstice but it’s okay. If it was meant for me to go I would be there right lol. I’ll take it as a sign that I need to get my shit organize before I just go and spend a couple days relaxing like I don’t have a shitload of things to do.

My third stack is Enochian books and a notebook full of information. The books doe this working are: Practical Enochian Magick, The Lost Art of Enochian Magick. Enochian Vision Magick and the Complete Enochian Dictionary. Again all boos read, noted and marked for future references and workings. I am always adding and modifying everything so I know what I’m getting into, even if I don’t have the time to do that working early.

Next stack is one for Hecate. I worked with her before on a few occasions and she’s not new to me but I want to get deeper intuned with her. So with Hecatean Magick, The Temple of Hecate and Hekate The luminaries, along with a thick notebook full of info and reared rituals and invocations I can start my journey to her.

I have a stack in two that contains handwritten material for groups I teach on my sisters websites and Facebook groups, and for my personal students as well. There is a nice thick stack for my personal occult business and it’s divided into three. Not to mention my school work for pharmacy tech and BOTA.

I have a stack say aside that are basics that I can use whenever, and not only for or with a working. Granted the workings can be stand alone seperate as well, I just choose not to do so at this time. Then there is another that is full of more books I keep finding and adding to my must read and utilize list. So far there are six books in that list and I am reading two of them now. Then there is my fantasy, mundane reading book stack that has 13 books in it. And that is not including the 80 comic books that I have as well 😉

There’s a few more stand alone stacks, for my Vodoun and Santeria gathering; herbology is big with a seperate rolladex to it lol; Books that need to have the notes written down.

The last stacks I have are for my Gnostic Angelic workings, Khemtic Working, Divination rites, and my Chakra workings. Not to mention the Goetia Working I am in the middle of doing and the Daemonolatry self work on engrossed in, plus a few stand alone books to play with.

So as you can see, I am not one to just read and think she knows everything. I have learned the hard way what to write and what not to write. Who to friend and who not to friend. What I’m interested in and what I have just because other people have it. I have eight notebooks and pads, including a dream journal that I have written in, over the past five years. So it’s a lot. Surprisingly I can schedule what needs to be worked with soon and the. Gather materials because not all of this will be active this year. But it will always be there to remind me that I have a lot ahead of me on my path.

And to boot, I’m starting back at school on January. So there are no excuse for anyone. I’m a house wife, a teach students, I help my sister run and manage over eight accounts, my personal accounts, my school work and still make sure the house is clean and dinner is ready. Granted I don’t have kids or a pet at this time, but when I had pets I still made everything work. If you really want to elevate yourself. You will find a way. You will always find a way.

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