To be honest this is the scariest chakra for me to work on. Even more so than the heart. Why? Because I have a difficult time expressing myself via words. My actions can be abrupt or misleading because I have a fucked up way of communicating with people. This is more so the case with 2 of my partners, both Geminis’, who are nothing but communication. So I have to figure out how to really express myself with it sounding like I don’t care, or I am overly emotional. It is such a balancing act that it irks me lol.
It is the one chakra that I have to constantly monitor, one that I constantly worry about, the only one in which I am concerned more than the others. I did a spread and of course I have things to hammer out. I always do. It seems to be the chakra that needs like a lifetime of working done on it. I always make 2 steps forward but 90 back and it is frustrating. Finding my voice is a lot more difficult than what I have ever imagined it would be. I can barely let the truth of my own self escape my lips, let I council others and expose the truth they refuse to listen to and see. I guess it is always like that, you can give great advice but can’t follow your own.
This is the pose that I will be doing. It looks weird and I have no doubt will feel weird as hell to do. But I do understand the purpose of it, and why this position helps. In releasing and opening up and loosening those vocal cords. Giving you that go for the release of voice, the release of self. These next three days and tonight should be very wonderful, and of course fucking nerve-racking just because of how I am and my fear with this chakra. But I shouldn’t be scared. I should just let it flow from me, give in and relax and let it tumble out. Not be mean spirited to myself but just try to do some exercises that will help push me forward.
An interesting time indeed.
Serenity of the Dark 