Serenity in the Dark

This is my last week!!!!!!!

Holy shit. I didn’t think I could do it honestly. But with scheduling the posts, it actually gave me more freedom to really get in an do my thang. Some of the rituals I did around 10 pm or later, so I damn sure wasn’t going to blog about it later lol.

But they came out and it was amazing. OK, so let me see whats been happening from last week and beyond. So the ritual and invocation to Satan was amazing, had me wide open. Then I did an invocation to Belial and Hecate and he yelled at me, and she made me cry lol. Like damn!!!!!! Tf! So when it came time for Lilith, I am like, scared at this point lmao! Like dude, I can’t take mom whooping my ass, she always tends to be more hands on as a parent lol!!!! But it wasn’t that bad, lol. The full moon ritual with Selene was pretty damn amazing. Never did something so long in my life lol, but I really enjoyed it. And honestly, I have no idea why or where she came from, but she popped in my mind. That means she is on her way into my pantheon. I just love it when they do this. It makes me feel really special, like holy shit, I must really be doing something right you know.

I was looking at all the tarot cards I pulled and started reading my interpretations of them, and man, once you see how they read you can totally understand why they yelled at me and brought out those emotions. It is all part of the breaking down and rebuilding process. No one said this shit would be easy, but to pass that threshold and achieve higher lengths, we have to fight through what holds us back. And 9 times out of 10, it is us. We are the ones cursing ourselves, making it bad on ourselves and shit. Well I know it is some people who are total dicks and damn near 100% of it is done by other people lol!!!!! But for the most part, we do it to ourselves. I think that makes it easier to fix since you KNOW the problem.

I am on day 3 of the Posiedon ritual and it is intense. Clarification, wisdom, showing emotional tides and just a connection to all. I did an invocation to Flereous and that was pretty good. I wasn’t sure what to expect but all I can say is a strong elemental current hit me and I will be adding him to my elemental pathworking. The images where just way to strong. It got my creative juices flowing and I was just tearing it up last night. Talk about lighting a fire under my ass lol!

So on to today’s workings. I will continue my reading of the Tarot (as they are getting really good at identifying and syncing to me), the Goetia is going smooth (I have around 6 or so to do before class next Sunday), and I have my reviews next to me ready to be scheduled. Well the ones I already done.

Today is really light besides the above, as I have also included an invocation to Verrine.

Now it is on to me to schedule the rest of the week and prepare for the finale of my 28 days! I must do this again. Seriously. I also suggest that people look for other Occultists/Magicians who offer workings and do it. You would be surprised at how good it feels to do workings every day, especially if you don’t or don’t do as much as you would like to, or feel comfortable doing. Get out that zone!!!!

Go find one of your favorite books and work through them, go on amazon and find these chap books, ask your friends what books would they recommend you to work through. If you can’t find inspiration from your friends and colleagues, then it is time to drop them and keep it moving. Harsh? Maybe. But why would you want to be around people who don’t move, stagnation is not something a Magician should be surrounded by.

*And no…not every friend has to be a magician, but for fucks sake…keep people around you who challenge you to better yourself. Hell it can be to go hiking or try a new sport, but keep people around you who grow and make your life worth living! Not the thousands of fucking cocksuckers who are miserable as shit and try to bring you down to their level. Grow, spread your wings. and fucking shine!!!!!!*