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Tarot classes, my hand at it

Posted in Important Posts with tags , , , on 03/15/2018 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

So next month I am trying my hand at leading a 30 day tarot challenge in my African American tarot group on fb. So I came up with some fun spreads, 3 from the internet and 2 I created. I look forward to seeing how the ladies and gentlemen progress on my challenge. it is all about self love, which comes with pain and healing, but you know what. It is totally worth it and everything.

It is only something I can think of, I can also come up with some discussions but I will see how this goes first before i try to lead like a 52 day class on reading and getting in touch with your cards lol.

I really love what I do, it is one of the few things that I can throw myself in and just feel free. But I am also addicted to tarot and plan on soaking up everything that I can with it and going from there.

#domagick Day 24

Posted in Rituals and Workings with tags , , , , on 12/24/2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

This was a feeling of just love. Love for myself,  and love for them. I dropped blood on all the points, on the sekhem circle and house markings as well. I connected my chakra points and the 16 powers just flew around, leaving just the crown glowing bright. Then the circle broke down and the hoygocu went into my body and started spinning, then the white cube went in and engulfed it, spinning.  Then the pyramid formed over it and finally the circle in which the 16 powers just wrapped over it. 
I got that feeling of falling within the pyramid,  but this time she held me and I saw the Council and the House there. She said my journey is ending, this mediation challenge, but I have a whole new path of workings to get back on, revive and stary fresh.

I shed a tear. I don’t think I ever felt that type of love coming from me. Like I found a way to love myself. Through opening myself up for whatever may happen. Through all the issues that have been compounding upon myself and this last year, has been the hardest. But I made it.

Again, no card draw for today. And no photo. 

#domagick Day 6

Posted in Rituals and Workings with tags , , , , , , , , , , on 12/06/2017 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Today was the beginning of my work with The Council. I connected to my House, and at a large wood table in front of me where the 3 heads of the House. Behind me, also sitting at wood tables where the council. They were divided into 2, 4 on each side.

The amount of approval and love that I was feeling from them was very overwhelming. I have came a long way, I have struggled, I have fucked up, and I have crashed and burn. But I always got back up and got better. I am at that point now. I am more full of love and confidence, and respect than I ever have been. But don’t get it twisted, this sweetheart will still fuck you up. I have a mean excretion arm. I’m still a Dark Magician. Who says a Daemonalter/Satanist,  Blood Chaos,  Necromancer can’t be bathed in pink and enjoy cartoons all day lol.

The Council gives me the most in depth working ever. After all I start with the 8 of them, and they are some heavy hitters.

I’ve become whole, I’ve been able to let my guard down and a facade that has protected me due to my own lack of confidence.  Not anymore. I have all the cconfidence right now, and I am building up more and more through my own faith in myself, my workings and my relationships. There is nothing like having a partner that supports you, grows with you, helps you, you learn from them and vice versa, and is honest with you. You can’t find that nowadays and it’s a blessing to find one that is on the same path as me. That has ideas bigger than mine. After all he created the House and every working I’m doing for these 30 days. The couple that works together, stays together lol.

My card draw for today.

I am not even going to describe it or give my interpretation.  It speaks for itself.

Back to Me

Posted in Important Posts with tags , , on 08/15/2013 by Keona-Mlh aka Beauty by LTL

Well sort of. I still have a long way to go, but I am better than I was a few days ago. I have a weight lifted off of my heart and I can move forward and work on me. I can get up everyday and know that I, in the end, am the only person who can truly love me. We should never depend on someone else to love u, and there are those of us who do.

I got up this morning and did something I haven’t done in a couple weeks. My hair. I also decided to put on some makeup to get me back in the way I was years ago, when I was working as a makeup artist in California. I would get up in the morning, shower, do my hair, put on my makeup and then pick my outfit depending on the heels I wanted to wear that day. I no longer do that. I wear sweat pants and leggings, but none of my heels or dresses. It has been a rough time for me but hey, I got it known in my mind that I will move on and do better. I mean what else can we do but move forward.

My creativity seems to be coming back little by little. It only took me 20 minutes to do full makeup instead of 2 hours for my eyes. I am no longer fucking up meals in the kitchen, but moving effortlessly in my preparation and ideas. I am working on my projects a lot more, and getting back into school as I have a test due and haven’t really studied for it. I want to be more active in my photography school and find more subjects, but tending to deal with people is a headache. I am thinking about getting a puppy or a cat.

In a few months I will be with my family for a festival for the Samhain Sabbat. And I think I will be so happy, that my heart will over flow with joy.

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