Today is my meditation with Aupep. The most beastial being I have worked with. I didn’t recite his enn this time, instead I recited this poem of opening into chaotic waters.
I see Aupep. Looking like the Dragon from Dragon Ball Z. Around him is a portal opening of pure fire. I am walking towards him and his tail slashes my arms from shoulder to wrist. But it isn’t blood spilling. It’s lava. It’s falling from my arm in spirals. It’s dripping in spirals onto the ground, as I walk into the fire portal to converse with Aupep. Once in the portal it seals, and it’s only darkness. The ring of fire is my only light source. I look down and I am walking on the teeth of serpents. As I walk, they are cutting into my feet, become one with my flesh. The lava blood is flowing from my veins and on the side of me are more serpents. The lava spills on them and they turn to ash. When they fall they fall upwards and wrap themselves around my open cut. And continue to do so until they are covering my arms. I hear Him say “We Are One. As One”. I look at my hands and they have serpent teeth at the end of them. My nails are no longer nails, but the teeth of what I was walking on.
I turn around and I am in a desert. I hear blades clinging, but I see nothing. I’m on flat land and I can see for miles. But I only hear the blades. Normally my ass would run off and go exploring, but this time I crossed my legs and fell to the ground. I’m acting bratty lol. I close eyes. I feel myself raise up and when I open them I’m looking at a dragons head on a serpents body. Yellow fluid is dripping from its veins. Annnnnddddd it takes off. Lol, I’m like shit. The sky changes from sort of dusk to purple. I have no clue what planet I’m on because when I look up, instead of seeing the Moon, I see Earth. Well shit. I know I can’t see it from Jupiter, plus I go there too much so I know this place isn’t it. Uranus comes to mind but I can’t see Earth, but it feels right. If not, then I am pretty sure I’m on a planet in a different damn solar system. I hear the clanging of metal. And I be damned. Are those Titans that I see fighting? Unholy hell! The Serpent I’m riding, which I’m pretty sure is Aupep, is speeding through the desert; but they are so large that it looks like we are just walking casually buy, instead of speeding at, at least 60 mph. Before I can comprehend, I’m back where I started. Wth dude. Damn it Aupep, you do this every time we meet lol.
I stand up and turn around and it’s Him. Giving off a Piccolo feel to him. He has my weapon in his hand, wearing gold and green Armour. His face is that of a dragon, a humanesque body with a very long and pointed tail. I look at my weapon, forgetting how he got it. I mean he is Aupep, he can have whatever he want, I’m not telling him no lol! In the scepter is a dark green blob of something. I take my weapon and look at it. It’s zooming in the scepter as if trying to break free. I hold my right hand up and wave it in front of it, and a man forms. Well humanoid figure forms. It is of a dark green color in the lotus position, with his third eye open. It flashes from ruby to garnet constantly. He smiles and stands up. I’m amazed. I move my hand and He forms back to a blob and darts around again. Again, I hold my hand up and we have a nice talk for a few.
Aupep and I talk for a few more. He is always imparting wisdom, giving me a kick up the ass and pushing me harder. To open up more, to feel more.
I blink and I’m back in front of the portal. The ring of fire. The portal is now just a mirror. Those ashes of the serpents are still fresh on my skin, the lava blood is still dripping out, albeit very slowly. He is behind me in the Mirror. It’s always a sadness when he leaves. It feels like a part of me aches for him to come back. But he knows I am strong, and it’s just my human emotions getting the best of me. After all, being back on Earth really isn’t everyone’s dream vacation lol.
I drew 2 cards, Not for You in the protection pose and Higher Power.
Not For You says stop chasing what’s running from you, and stop trying to make things work. Just move in. There are better things for you. You see the red flags, heed them and move on. I need to trust that something better is waiting for me.
Higher Power, reminds me that I am conscious for a reason. I’m here for a reason. I need to let that reason be the for front with more meditation. Relationship wise my connection to the Spirit is number one. But this card also means that I am partnered with someone who is very essential in my growth and evolution. The main message is let my Spirit Lead. Know that you are not alone. Have humility.
Serenity in the Dark 